Thursday, March 23, 2017

Love or Leave, Your Choice

It's still one month after the Valentine's Day. Therefore, I would love to take this opportunity to share with you about my opinions towards love & relationship. There's nothing about this particular topic, but I have never shared what I think or how I feel about it to anyone else. Maybe my closed friend (s), but not the online sphere obviously... Have you ever come across the situation when you are not sure if you want to continue or end it? I have, and it's the worst feelings ever...In fact, I am scared to fall in love deeply with someone, because I know it's gonna end up hurting my own feelings. 

เคยไหมค่ะกับการกลัวที่จะรักใครสักคนเพราะเมื่อรักไปแล้วก็จะเจ็บหนัก เหมือนกับขึ้นที่สูงมากๆ ตกมาก็เจ็บกว่าคนอื่น วันนี้แก้วจะมาขอแชร์ทัศนคติเกี่ยวกับเรื่องความรักในสไตล์แฟชั่นบล็อกเกอร์ไทยคนหนึ่งแล้วกันเนอะ อาจจะไม่ได้เป็นกูรูด้านนี้แต่ก็อยากจะมาแบ่งปันเรื่องราวให้เพื่อนๆได้อ่านกันค่ะ

It hurts when something just doesn't go well as we wish, right? And so does 'relationship' As mentioned, I am afraid to be in love 100% because I have that artist thing inside my mind called overemotional 101. I believe that some of you might be the same, like those creative minded fashion designer, or artist in general. I am one of them...When I speak, everything is honesty. Though, it might sound harsh when I criticize on the project or any other works, but that's who I am. 'We' are very emotional when it comes to the word 'love' Because we are an artist. For example, when I love someone, I will insanely in love with that person. When I'm sad, I cry for days. When I'm angry, don't get near me. That's why I have decided to go 'selfless' which means 'not to feel a damn thing

In the past, I wasted so much time on the guys I didn't deserve. Maybe, I was a stupid girl who kept holding on to a guy who treated me like a doormat. I wasn't mind though...Because I was blinded. I couldn't even remember how much I spent my money in buying the stuff to please them. Even designed a tattoo for a guy who threw my sketch on the floor in the next day. See, this's not a good example...However, I take it as a lesson learned, because without those shit days, I wouldn't be a stronger person as I am nowadays. 

I think, the pain was too much for me to bear, that's why I made a decision to leave without wasting a single of tear drop. I mean, I cried when I was in love, but once I made up my mind, those emotional feelings were gone completely. That's weird, but it's good too! Trust me, the hope of changing someone is ridiculous. Because at the end of the day, we will feel disappointed in such expectation...Really. "He will text me back", "He will change himself for me", "He will come see me today" These were my thoughts back then. Did it happen? NOPE

I've chosen to be the person who don't have any hope about love, because I don't want to cry. I've been focusing on my blogging career more than anything. The more I run after it, the more I feel like it keeps pushing me away. I don't know when I try too hard, it just never happens. Unlike, working on this fashion blog, the more I try, the more I get. 


  1. I think relationships will always bee good learning experiences, if the bad ones. The importance I think is to excerice caustion and find someone who is worth the stress. I don't think you should completely give up though, but develop yourself while you wait for the right one.
    Princess Audu

  2. I understand! Yes, I can be pretty emotional too, and fall hard for things too. I've had my share of the guys that I shouldn't have wasted so much thought or feeling on. One was particularly abusive and I just thought at the time that I had to stick it out with him. I learned that my instincts to get out of that situation were right, even if I had trouble listening to them. It's not easy to be open to let someone in again. It took me years (and an admittedly loooong list of men) to feel I was ready and even then I had to take it step by step.
    xx Jenelle

  3. Thanks for opening up your emotions. All I can say is, I too felt like a doormat and then I met my husband and he is perfect for me. If I had not experienced all those low points with boyfriends I would not have appreciated my husband so much X

  4. That's what makes us stronger, hope you find somebody right for you someday!

  5. Mee,too, Gail!
    I also cried many times, then I am concentrating my blog, too!
    And studying English :)


  6. Love the shoes


  7. Thanks for sharing your story. Sometimes we have to go through a few painful moments in our lives to get to where we are today. :)

  8. I think almost everyone goes through a shitty relationship first, so they can value the next which is usually so much better. Like you said, it's a learning process :)

  9. I needed to hear this from someone else because I am going through the exact same thing right now. I don't know what love is, I think both of us have made mistakes in the past but now I am not sure if I was even loved and it hurts like crazy. The hardest part is to forget and begin again but it is also hard to amend things knowing that it won't be same ever again.

    Delaine |

  10. I feel you lovely... For me , it's more with shitty friendship, taking advantage of me. Only calling or texting me when they need something. Treating me like crap behind my back :(.
    But I love your oufit, you look so beautiful!

  11. It is such a horrible feeling! I think most people actually stay in these types of situations though because they’re scared of the unknown - what will happen after it ends, wether it’s a job, relationship, friendship, moving cities, etc... Thanks for sharing this, I’m sure it will help a lot of people!


  12. Great read babe thanks for sharing a more personal side of you to us! Hope you one day find someone who will treat you the way you deserve to be treated with the utmost respect and love. Love and relationships are so tedious sometimes haha glad you're trying to focus on yourself and blogging ya #BOSSLADY!!

  13. Yes, this is my motto! Love your look - as usual wonderful cool and the shirt is perfect!
    xx from Bavaria/Germany, Rena