Thursday, March 23, 2017
Love or Leave, Your Choice
It's still one month after the Valentine's Day. Therefore, I would love to take this opportunity to share with you about my opinions towards love & relationship. There's nothing about this particular topic, but I have never shared what I think or how I feel about it to anyone else. Maybe my closed friend (s), but not the online sphere obviously... Have you ever come across the situation when you are not sure if you want to continue or end it? I have, and it's the worst feelings ever...In fact, I am scared to fall in love deeply with someone, because I know it's gonna end up hurting my own feelings.
เคยไหมค่ะกับการกลัวที่จะรักใครสักคนเพราะเมื่อรักไปแล้วก็จะเจ็บหนัก เหมือนกับขึ้นที่สูงมากๆ ตกมาก็เจ็บกว่าคนอื่น วันนี้แก้วจะมาขอแชร์ทัศนคติเกี่ยวกับเรื่องความรักในสไตล์แฟชั่นบล็อกเกอร์ไทยคนหนึ่งแล้วกันเนอะ อาจจะไม่ได้เป็นกูรูด้านนี้แต่ก็อยากจะมาแบ่งปันเรื่องราวให้เพื่อนๆได้อ่านกันค่ะ
It hurts when something just doesn't go well as we wish, right? And so does 'relationship' As mentioned, I am afraid to be in love 100% because I have that artist thing inside my mind called overemotional 101. I believe that some of you might be the same, like those creative minded fashion designer, or artist in general. I am one of them...When I speak, everything is honesty. Though, it might sound harsh when I criticize on the project or any other works, but that's who I am. 'We' are very emotional when it comes to the word 'love' Because we are an artist. For example, when I love someone, I will insanely in love with that person. When I'm sad, I cry for days. When I'm angry, don't get near me. That's why I have decided to go 'selfless' which means 'not to feel a damn thing'
In the past, I wasted so much time on the guys I didn't deserve. Maybe, I was a stupid girl who kept holding on to a guy who treated me like a doormat. I wasn't mind though...Because I was blinded. I couldn't even remember how much I spent my money in buying the stuff to please them. Even designed a tattoo for a guy who threw my sketch on the floor in the next day. See, this's not a good example...However, I take it as a lesson learned, because without those shit days, I wouldn't be a stronger person as I am nowadays.
I think, the pain was too much for me to bear, that's why I made a decision to leave without wasting a single of tear drop. I mean, I cried when I was in love, but once I made up my mind, those emotional feelings were gone completely. That's weird, but it's good too! Trust me, the hope of changing someone is ridiculous. Because at the end of the day, we will feel disappointed in such expectation...Really. "He will text me back", "He will change himself for me", "He will come see me today" These were my thoughts back then. Did it happen? NOPE
I've chosen to be the person who don't have any hope about love, because I don't want to cry. I've been focusing on my blogging career more than anything. The more I run after it, the more I feel like it keeps pushing me away. I don't know when I try too hard, it just never happens. Unlike, working on this fashion blog, the more I try, the more I get.